Okay, okay, so even though I am emotionally there, like in my last post, I will be just fine. I am not sure why we always like to feel sorry for ourselves. I would be the first one to tell you, if you are feeling sorry for yourself, take your eyes off yourself and look around. There is always someone who has it much worse. In fact, I can't even begin to count how many times I have said it, or thought it.
I have decided to give myself a worthy way to do just such the thing. I am crocheting baby blankets, and heart shaped pillows. I also am working on a blanket for a purpose yet to be mentioned, because I don't want to talk about it yet, but it will have a special purpose. I want to give the heart pillows to those who are going through a rough time, whether it is the loss of a loved one, or just needing a heart to snuggle, that is what I intend to do with them. The baby blankets are to have on hand, for the many young families I know that are having babies! I have made 3 baby blankets thus far, and it has only been a week since I started. It is great to have something to do when I endure watching television. I received a ton of yarn from a couple of people, and have enough to make quite a few awesome little blankets. I will get them pictured and posted here in a day or two. That is my weakness, is the photo side of blogging. I will get better at it though. Hang in there to see them!
I kind of got the idea to create my own little trade mark, so I am doing it with hearts. Each little blanket will have a small crocheted heart somewhere on it, and then of course the heart pillows. Kind of my made with love symbol, or my signature mark.
I am excited about it. Perhaps I will be remembered by some, as the lady who gave small comforts with her hearts. I don't know. I just know I need to take some of my focus off of my own wo's and focus them on others. Giving my TIME to help others is one of my TIME goals and focus of this year, 2018.
I have also decided, I do need a little time to myself, to do something for myself, and so I have designated Wednesday evenings this year to take that TIME for me, doing what I love to do. I am heading to the Library each Wednesday for a couple of hours. Whether I read a novel, work on my own writings, read a book just to learn something, or even just write on one of my blogs, I will be taking a couple of hours once a week, TIME just for me. My sanity break! I really, really, and focused on getting some of my own writing and things done this year as well, which will kick my business into high gear, fingers crossed!!
I look forward to the many things I get to make and share with others this year, and I look forward to expanding my knowledge. Honestly, the library is one of my favorite places to just be. And of course, Walk The Creek will be my place to share all my learnings and journeys this year.
Now, I am a little bit more excited about the year ahead facing me. I am driven by goals. Remember my main goal / word for this year is TIME. TIME to do not only what I love, but what will benefit others. TIME for me, is the one that I am super excited about, because it really is in scarce amounts as of....... well......... forever. I never do it. This year, I am doing it!
Tuesday, January 16, 2018
Friday, January 12, 2018
I Am There
Life falls apart. It really does. Some days, it is all we can do to get through. Some days, our prayers to Someone much larger than us, are simply thus: "Help me get through one more day today, please." I am there.
I know I shouldn't be there, but I keenly feel like my life is spiraling. I am there. I just need to get through one day at a time, and maybe some day soon, I can get through two days at a time. I am there.
I had really hoped that by now in my life, things would have smoothed out just a bit. I have walked up and down this same old creek many times, the same old trial, the same old rocks and rapids, and I am there again. What do I do? I get through one day at a time.
Yes, this is my place to rant, where nobody can hear me, or see me. It is all mine - my Walk The Creek. It is my creek, my place to be, say, and do what I want. I feel sad today. I feel very much alone. I wonder sometimes if my prayers are answered - yet I know they are. I am there.
I feel like my toe is stuck under a rock, with the icy cold water rushing over my foot. The rock is sharp and cutting. It is too heavy to move myself. Thank goodness the water is only knee deep, or I would be in serious trouble. Thank goodness there isn't a tide, for it is just a creek. I know at the end of each day, I will be alive, but it still hurts. I am still stuck without knowing how to get out. I am there.
I put a smile on my face, as I can. Sometimes I just need to be alone - because I can't smile. I know people around me, love me, but sometimes I don't care. I am there.
Yes it sounds depressing, and serious, and I guess it is. I know I will get through, because I have many, many times before - one day at a time. One prayer at a time. One shove of that rock. One more step on the next slimy rock. One more fight against that rapid. One more.... I am there.
Yes, I am there. I will survive, but it hurts, and I question why, and I wonder if it will ever change, and I sigh........... I am there.
I know I shouldn't be there, but I keenly feel like my life is spiraling. I am there. I just need to get through one day at a time, and maybe some day soon, I can get through two days at a time. I am there.
I had really hoped that by now in my life, things would have smoothed out just a bit. I have walked up and down this same old creek many times, the same old trial, the same old rocks and rapids, and I am there again. What do I do? I get through one day at a time.
Yes, this is my place to rant, where nobody can hear me, or see me. It is all mine - my Walk The Creek. It is my creek, my place to be, say, and do what I want. I feel sad today. I feel very much alone. I wonder sometimes if my prayers are answered - yet I know they are. I am there.
I feel like my toe is stuck under a rock, with the icy cold water rushing over my foot. The rock is sharp and cutting. It is too heavy to move myself. Thank goodness the water is only knee deep, or I would be in serious trouble. Thank goodness there isn't a tide, for it is just a creek. I know at the end of each day, I will be alive, but it still hurts. I am still stuck without knowing how to get out. I am there.
I put a smile on my face, as I can. Sometimes I just need to be alone - because I can't smile. I know people around me, love me, but sometimes I don't care. I am there.
Yes it sounds depressing, and serious, and I guess it is. I know I will get through, because I have many, many times before - one day at a time. One prayer at a time. One shove of that rock. One more step on the next slimy rock. One more fight against that rapid. One more.... I am there.
Yes, I am there. I will survive, but it hurts, and I question why, and I wonder if it will ever change, and I sigh........... I am there.
Friday, January 05, 2018
Time
Well, I have decided my word for this year, 2018, is TIME!
My goal, and yes I really only have one, but it encompasses many, is this.....
You see, it is really all about the TIME. I am "that" person, who let's the urgent run my life. I drop everything to do what needs to be done in the urgent moment. I drop everything when I get interrupted, only to get back to it eventually - sometimes days later. I can be in the middle of working on a blog post, or writing in my book, or reading a book, when something comes up and I stop. Seriously, sometimes it is days later when I get the time to get back to doing whatever it was.
Don't get me wrong here, because they are all good things. It is just the fact I feel like I am not in control, everyone and everything else controls my TIME, and I don't love that! That is the beginning of my goal, is to control my own TIME, not let others control it for me, and yes, that probably means I have to get up at 5:30 again each morning just to have that extra couple of hours to myself. It is in those quiet hours of the morning, when nobody else is moving, that my brain works best, and I am most productive. TIME.
Part two - PRACTICE - is a big part of my goal. I learn many things, and have a ton of knowledge of things, like preparedness, languages, etc. One thing I have learned, through my job, is when I PRACTICE something, I get better at it. We have a little Spanish guy in our class, and it has given me a great opportunity to speak and understand Spanish. Thus, my Spanish has improved and it has given me more encouragement to study, speak, and PRACTICE in general. This, is something I need to do in all areas of my life: preparedness, writing, blogging, languages, crocheting, etc. I can push myself and PRACTICE to get better!
Knowledge is a wonderful thing. In fact, it is one of the things I am most passionate about, learning new things. I KNOW a lot of things, but one of the things I KNOW the most, is that I always have more to learn. I love going to the library, and that will be a more important part of my study habits in 2018. I KNOW I want to KNOW more. One of my favorite quotes of all TIME........
I spent 3 days a week for 10 years educating myself in the public library, and it's better than college. People should educate themselves - you can get a complete education for no money. After 10 years, I'd read every book in the library and I'd written a thousand stories. Ray Bradbury.
The library is definitely high on my priority list this year - 2018!
DO takes TIME, to DO the things I want to DO, it will take TIME, and PRACTICE.
To DO what I LOVE to DO, is the key. It will take TIME. I have TIME.
My goal, and yes I really only have one, but it encompasses many, is this.....
I want to take the TIME
to PRACTICE
what I KNOW
and to DO
what I LOVE
to DO.
You see, it is really all about the TIME. I am "that" person, who let's the urgent run my life. I drop everything to do what needs to be done in the urgent moment. I drop everything when I get interrupted, only to get back to it eventually - sometimes days later. I can be in the middle of working on a blog post, or writing in my book, or reading a book, when something comes up and I stop. Seriously, sometimes it is days later when I get the time to get back to doing whatever it was.
Don't get me wrong here, because they are all good things. It is just the fact I feel like I am not in control, everyone and everything else controls my TIME, and I don't love that! That is the beginning of my goal, is to control my own TIME, not let others control it for me, and yes, that probably means I have to get up at 5:30 again each morning just to have that extra couple of hours to myself. It is in those quiet hours of the morning, when nobody else is moving, that my brain works best, and I am most productive. TIME.
Every time you tear a leaf off a calendar, you present a new place for ideas and progress. Charles Kettering.
Part two - PRACTICE - is a big part of my goal. I learn many things, and have a ton of knowledge of things, like preparedness, languages, etc. One thing I have learned, through my job, is when I PRACTICE something, I get better at it. We have a little Spanish guy in our class, and it has given me a great opportunity to speak and understand Spanish. Thus, my Spanish has improved and it has given me more encouragement to study, speak, and PRACTICE in general. This, is something I need to do in all areas of my life: preparedness, writing, blogging, languages, crocheting, etc. I can push myself and PRACTICE to get better!
Don't only practice your art, but force your way into it's secrets; art deserves that, for it and knowledge can raise man to the Divine. Ludwig Van Beethoven
Knowledge is a wonderful thing. In fact, it is one of the things I am most passionate about, learning new things. I KNOW a lot of things, but one of the things I KNOW the most, is that I always have more to learn. I love going to the library, and that will be a more important part of my study habits in 2018. I KNOW I want to KNOW more. One of my favorite quotes of all TIME........
I spent 3 days a week for 10 years educating myself in the public library, and it's better than college. People should educate themselves - you can get a complete education for no money. After 10 years, I'd read every book in the library and I'd written a thousand stories. Ray Bradbury.
The library is definitely high on my priority list this year - 2018!
DO takes TIME, to DO the things I want to DO, it will take TIME, and PRACTICE.
DO it now. Sometimes later becomes never! Anonymous
To DO what I LOVE to DO, is the key. It will take TIME. I have TIME.
